on the edge: i let the darkness comfort me for a moment

I am sitting in a Peet’s coffee shop staring out the window.

No coffee, no tea, no pastries – I left my wallet at home. Not that I could afford tea and pastry anyway but I like to feel like I have options.

I managed to get myself to do chores around the house and get dressed. I skipped the shower because taking one seemed like it would be too much and I may never leave the house If I had to do it. I was on the edge.